My Hope is in Christ

This week has been hard for me.  When Covid-19 first started happening I thought, I’ll have to stay home for about two weeks, that’s not ideal but I can handle it.  Now that the optimistic estimate is the middle of May it has gotten me down a little bit.  I’m very thankful that (as of right now) no one in my family seems to be sick but it’s so difficult to entertain a toddler all day.  M.J. also seems to be more moody lately and I think it’s because he misses his friends.   And he’s pretty much stopped napping and this is the perfect time for that (sarcasm intended). 

I was telling Dan the other day about how stir-crazy and depressed I was getting and he told me to go grocery shopping.  I was nervous about getting sick or getting other people sick but I did my best to stay six feet away from everyone else (in some stores in can be a little difficult).  And Costco had toilet paper!  The only thing we were a little low on that I couldn’t find at the store was disinfectant wipes. But we have enough to hopefully last us a couple weeks (I’m not really sure because I’ve been using more than normal lately).

I have also been thinking about my OCD.  My intrusive thoughts aren’t normally about germs but lately they seem to be.  Although, I guess you don’t need to have OCD to be paranoid about germs right now.  I’m worried Dan, Michael or I will get sick but Dan has been very helpful by showing me the percentage of people our age who have died.  I don’t remember the exact number but it was low. 

Our life group also met over Zoom today and it was pretty cool.  I can’t wait until we are able to meet in person again, though.  We were talking about anxiety and having hope in Christ.  It is a very difficult time but I know even if I die I will go to heaven.  It’s so cool to have a group of Christian people who I can talk to throughout this difficult time.  It has been hard but I am so thankful for technology that allows us to “connect.”  I can’t wait until we are allowed to have social interaction again.

“We remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.” 1st Thessalonians 1:3 NIV

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Christian. Wife. Mom. I just want to share my journey of motherhood and let struggling moms know they're not alone. I enjoy reading, playing board games, spending time with friends and family, and volunteering in the community.

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