Blessed Beyond Belief

Lately I’ve been thinking about how blessed I am.  I have a wonderful husband who loves me so much and has been so supportive.  When I was extremely depressed and suicidal he took time off work so he could watch our child and I could get the help I needed.   I was worried he wouldn’t want to be with me because who wants to be married to a crazy lady but he was only concerned about the fact I had seriously considered suicide.  I am so glad God gave me Dan for my husband.  Whenever I tell him I am depressed or anxious he listens to me and doesn’t tell me to just “get over it.”

I sometimes think about things that didn’t go my way and I feel like it was so God could lead me to my wonderful husband.  I went to college for a year in Texas but I had to come back because I couldn’t afford it.  I remember being mad at God.  I wondered why he would let me go to Texas and make friends who I might not be able to see again.  But thinking about it now if I had stayed in Texas I could have ended up married to someone else and maybe have never even met Dan.  I really can’t imagine my life without him.  I just realized this is getting pretty sappy.  I just feel like Dan and I have already gone through so many struggles through our first five years of marriage and I love him more every day.  Also, if I hadn’t married Dan I probably wouldn’t have M.J. and I love that kid so much.

I also think about some stupid things I did as a young adult because I was lonely.  I technically regret doing these things but I feel they helped lead me on the path to meet my husband.  I think God can turn bad things around for good. 

I am just so thankful for the family God has blessed me with.  I love Dan and M.J. so much.  The quarantine and having to wear masks in public has been hard for me lately but it’s so helpful to remember all God has blessed me with.

For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. Psalms 30:5 NIV

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Christian. Wife. Mom. I just want to share my journey of motherhood and let struggling moms know they're not alone. I enjoy reading, playing board games, spending time with friends and family, and volunteering in the community.

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