Is it possible for three to be the worst age and the best age at the same time?  I guess mostly today it’s feeling like the worst age.  I am getting so stressed out with potty training.  M.J. will go pee on the potty for Dan but he has no desire to go on the potty for me.  Earlier, he said he wanted to pee outside and I told him it was too cold but he peed outside anyway.  On the sidewalk!  I was so upset, he peed right next to our water bottles and my journal and phone.  You’re not supposed to pee on the sidewalk, kid!  Then I stupidly let him have crackers in the living room and he made a huge mess.  I don’t normally care about messes that much but I was already mad about the potty situation so I was pretty annoyed M.J. made such a huge mess with his crackers.

Now, I’m feeling guilty for getting mad at my kid.  I know all parents get mad at their kids sometimes and I think I handled my anger okay but I still feel bad about it.  Dan asked M.J. if he wanted to go to the store with him and M.J. said, “No, I want to stay home with Mommy.”  We both thought he would say yes but I guess he just loves me so much (Yay.)  Dan said, “You know it won’t be too long until he’s a teenager and he wants nothing to do with us.”  Sometimes I wish that would come sooner.  Okay, I know I don’t really wish that. 

M.J. was so sweet earlier when we were playing outside.  He picked a flower and gave it to me.  He said, “This flower is your favorite.”  He has been picking me flowers lately and it’s so cool he is starting to show his love in different ways.  He also has made me a few boats out of blocks and wants me to bring them with me everywhere.  I went on a ladies retreat last weekend which was so relaxing.  But M.J. wanted to come with me so I said I would bring his boat and while I was there I took a few pictures and sent them to Dan so he could show them to M.J. 

It was so nice to be able to watch the waves and the sunset and have a break from parenting.  But towards the end of the weekend I started to miss M.J.  I was thinking, this is weird, I’ve never missed him before.  I was very surprised I would start to miss him but I guess when you’re with someone 24-7 you get used to having them around.  I am so glad I was able to get a break from being a mom and just be a person for a little bit.  I loved watching the waves and getting a little time to write.  Oh, I guess it was fun to fellowship with the women in my life group, too.

Having a break from my son reminded me how much I love him.  It was so nice to be able to have time to myself.  I think it is important to take a break from your kids.  Self-care is essential to be a good mom.  Even though M.J. was frustrating today he was also very sweet.  I love it when he picks me flowers or makes me boats.  So what do you think?  Is three the worst or best age?  I think it probably depends on the day.  And the time of day.  And whether or not your kid is potty-trained or wants to potty-train.  I guess overall it’s a pretty good age.

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Christian. Wife. Mom. I just want to share my journey of motherhood and let struggling moms know they're not alone. I enjoy reading, playing board games, spending time with friends and family, and volunteering in the community.

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