Have you ever felt broken? Have you ever felt like there’s no way God could use you? Maybe that there’s no way God could even love you? I have felt unlovable. No matter how you feel, God loves you. Even if people have told you that don’t deserve love. Even if people have treated you like you don’t deserve love. God loves you. God loves you so much. God loves you no matter what.
“When you see nothing but damaged goods, I see something good in the making. I’m not finished yet. When you see wounded, I see mended.”- Mended by Matthew West
I have been feeling a little depressed lately. I had a good weekend until a certain “conversation” with someone. I won’t go into detail, but this person made me very sad and angry. I am still feeling sad. I think this situation combined with the Pandemic situation has caused me to be more depressed lately. I am frustrated with myself for being so sensitive. How could I let one person effect my mood so much? I think it would be beneficial for my mental health to not associate with this person for a little while. But, then of course, I feel guilty about it. It’s hard to know if I should feel guilty or not. I know God calls us to forgive, but does that mean I have to spend time with people who have a negative impact on my mental health?
“God only knows what you’ve been through. God only knows what they say about you. God only knows the real you. But there’s a kind of love that God only knows.”- God Only Knows by For King and Country
God knows everything you have been through. God hurts when we hurt. God loves you more than any human can love you. If you have been hurt, if you feel damaged, God loves you. God loves you no matter what. God loves broken people. God uses broken people. When Jesus talked with the woman at the well, he broke all kinds of “social rules” (John 4). It was not acceptable for Jews to associate with Samaritans. Women were treated like they were lesser than men. This woman had been married five times and she was currently living with a man she was not married to. However; Jesus used her. After He talked to her, she went and told people what He had said. When she told them about Him, they went to the “village to see Him” (vs. 30). Jesus used the Samaritan woman to bring people to Him. He can use anyone to bring people to Him.
Just because you feel broken doesn’t mean God can’t use you. God uses broken people all throughout the Bible. As long as you humble yourself, God can use you. Just because you feel broken doesn’t mean God doesn’t love you. God loves you so much. God hurts when we hurt. If people hurt you, God is with you. Try not to let other people determine your self-esteem. I know this is VERY hard. I need to go to therapy to help with my self-esteem. This is okay. Just because people have hurt you doesn’t mean you deserve it. Look to God to determine your self-esteem. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalms 139:14). God loves you know matter what. You are beautiful. You are loved.
“You make beautiful things, You make beautiful things out of the dust. You make beautiful things, You make beautiful things out of us.”- Beautiful Things by Gungor