I recently started reading the book, Bored and Brilliant by Manoush Zomorodi. She talks about the benefits of letting our minds wander. She says when we let our minds wander we come up with more creative ideas. If I’m being honest, the idea of letting my mind wander gives me Anxiety.
I worry if I let my mind wander, I will start having intrusive thoughts; this is very scary to me. Although, the idea of being more creative sounds helpful for writing, I worry that my thoughts won’t be creative. I worry they will be scary and distressing. I’m sure I’m not the only one who has felt this way. I know many people with anxiety disorders will mindlessly watch TV to distract themselves from intrusive or anxious thoughts. I guess letting my mind wander would probably be good exposure therapy, but exposure therapy is very scary. Who wants to expose themselves to their fears? No one! But it can be very helpful. Maybe after M.J. goes to bed I’ll let my mind wander…
Now that I think about it, I will often think of things to write when I am trying to go to sleep. Maybe this is because I haven’t really been bored throughout the day. Although, I don’t know how moms of young children find time to be bored. If I have a moment to myself I want to read a book, or watch a show, or spend quality time with my husband. Although, I have been feeling guilty that I haven’t really enjoyed playing with M.J. lately. I’m not sure why, maybe because I am not a 3 year old or maybe because he is a bit of a wild child. However, maybe feeling bored while I’m playing with him is a good thing. Maybe it can help me think of cool things to write about.
I checked out this book from the library for the Winter Reading Contest they are doing. One of the books for the contest is a book about technology. I checked out Bored and Brilliant about a week ago, but I just recently started reading it. I was hesitant to start it because I didn’t want to feel guilty about how much TV I’ve let M.J. watch recently. He always wants me to play with him, but sometimes I want to read or write. Or I might need to clean the house, cook dinner, or take a shower. Of course, he doesn’t normally ask me to play with him if he’s watching a show. Especially if it’s Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. Although, I’m sure I’m not the only parent who has let my kid watch more TV lately. It is so difficult when we can’t leave the house that much. Sometimes I feel bad for M.J. because he is such an extrovert. Every day he asks, “Are we going to somebody’s house?” “Is somebody gonna come at our house?” We probably have been more social than some people would agree with, but I think mine and M.J.’s mental health is just as important as our physical health. Neither of us are high-risk and my kid desperately needs social interaction.
I’m guessing it is probably important to let M.J. be bored, too. He will often use his imagination if he is playing by himself, but he often wants to bring me into the world he’s created. Of course, I like playing with him sometimes, but not all day, every day. Also, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse is fairly educational so it is probably a good show to let M.J. watch.
If the idea of letting your thoughts wander is scary to you, you are not alone. I’m a little nervous to let my mind wander (I also wonder when I will have time), but I’m hoping it will help me be more creative in my writing. Also, if you’ve been letting your kids watch a lot of T.V. lately, don’t feel bad. It’s important to keep your sanity. Although, watching so much Mickey Mouse Clubhouse could probably add to my craziness. I’m sure many parents have been letting their kids watch more T.V. that normal lately. This is okay. You’re a good mom. You’re a good dad. You are doing the best you can.