In M.J.’s class at church on Sunday, they learned the Bible story where Jesus calmed the storm (Mark 4:36-41).  The lesson they learned is “Jesus is AMAZING!”  M.J. definitely has that lesson down.  I don’t know if he understands what it means, but he was yelling it all day long. 

Although, M.J. hurt my ears from yelling this all day long, I feel that it is such a good reminder.  It’s so simple, but so magnificent.  Jesus is amazing!  He has done so many amazing things.  He died on the cross and rose again for me and for you.  I’m so thankful he paid the price for my sins.  It was something none of us deserved, but Jesus paid the price for us.  He has also blessed me with so much in my life.

“Then You came along and put me back together.”- Graves into Gardens by Elevation Worship and Brandon Lake

I’m so thankful for my family.  I’m so thankful God has blessed me with a wonderful husband and son.  I’m thankful Dan has been able to work during the whole Pandemic and we have not struggled financially.  I’m so thankful for all my friends.  I feel like I have so many people who I can rely on or talk to about my struggles.  I’m thankful I have mom friends who tell me they also struggle with parenting and their kids are also brats sometimes.  I have been blessed with so much.

Since M.J. is 3 the lessons they learn in his class at church are very simple.  But I think we might miss out on the simple things once we get older.  Maybe, we feel we have to study the Bible more in-depth so we can understand everything about it.  Maybe, we feel we have to get the theology all figured out.  There is nothing wrong with learning more about God or the Bible, but we want to know Jesus with our heart, not just our mind.  Learning different things about the Bible is interesting, but the most important thing is your heart.  We need to remember that God loves us no matter what.  We need to remember that God is loving and forgiving.  We want to continue to be more like Him.  But when we fail, there is always grace.  God loves us no matter what we’ve done.  God loves us no matter what other people say.  God loves the outcasts.  God loves the “sinners”.  God loves you.

“Oh Jesus, You came to my rescue.  Took my place upon that cross.  You redeemed what I had lost.  Now, my whole world revolving around You.”- Follow You Anywhere (Passion Music)

I also think Jesus is amazing because he has worked in my life so much throughout the past couple years.  I am so thankful He decided I wasn’t done on this Earth and didn’t allow me to end my life.  I am so thankful He blessed me with more time with my husband and son.  When I had just been diagnosed with OCD and was extremely suicidal I was so confused.  I thought, I’m a horrible person.  God doesn’t love me.  What is wrong with me?  When I finally accepted the fact that I had a disorder I wondered why God would let me have OCD.  I knew He could heal me if He wanted to so I wondered why He didn’t want to.  I was confused, scared, sad, and maybe a little angry.  Now, I realize going through that hard time helped me so much with my faith in God.  It reminded me God always loves me.  God loves me no matter what.  He blessed me with therapy, medication, and a wonderful support system.  He really is amazing!

I believe God has not healed me of my OCD so I can help make others more aware.  OCD is very misunderstood.  Many people who have OCD have messy houses.  OCD is not just cleaning.  OCD is not just handwashing.  There are many different types of OCD.  Please, stop using OCD as an adjective.  This confuses many people.  OCD is a debilitating disorder.  If you think you may be struggling, don’t be afraid to ask for help.  I’m so glad I asked for help and I am no longer suicidal.  Mental health is physical health, too.  Don’t be embarrassed to ask for help.  Also, remember God loves you.  You are always loved.  You matter.

“And they feared exceedingly, and said to one another, ‘Who can this be, that even the wind and the sea obey Him!’” Mark 4:41 NKJV

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Christian. Wife. Mom. I just want to share my journey of motherhood and let struggling moms know they're not alone. I enjoy reading, playing board games, spending time with friends and family, and volunteering in the community.

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