I think I’ve mentioned a few times that I don’t like winter. I don’t like being cold; I used to stay inside pretty much all winter. I still stay inside for a lot of the time, but I have noticed I feel better if I go out to get a little fresh air. Yes, even in the cold. I feel like cold weather often causes my Depression to worsen which I know is common, but there are many different ways cope with it. I have tried to start going for a walk outside as often as I can. I try to go every day, but it doesn’t always work out. I have noticed I feel refreshed after walking outside especially if it’s sunny. My therapy lamp helps a lot, but nothing can beat real sunshine. Of course, I don’t stay outside very long. I’m guessing if I stayed out too long I would just feel cold and miserable. However, getting fresh air feels so good. The other day while going for a walk I thought of a poem to write.
Icy, windy, cold, snow
Could this really be beautiful?
I don’t like the wind
I don’t like the cold
It is pretty watching the snow
Winter is my least favorite season
I try to choose joy for many reasons
I love looking around at nature when I go for walks. I don’t like the fact that snow is cold, but I do find it very beautiful. I love looking at snow on the trees or watching it fall from the sky. Yesterday, it was really sunny out and I loved watching the sun reflect on the snow. I know winter will never be my favorite season and that’s okay, but I have realized it helps with Depression and Anxiety to find joy in the little things. I find it much easier to find joy in the little things than I used to. Maybe it’s because I have a 3 year old or maybe it’s because I came so close to ending my life. Whatever the reason, I’m so glad it has gotten easier for me.
I know right now it can be so hard for people to find reasons to choose joy. It can be very difficult to find joy in the little things. There is so much division in our country. There is so much disagreement about Covid regulations. There are so many people struggling with Anxiety, Depression, and feelings of isolation. I know a lot of people have lost their jobs or are struggling financially. These are all extremely difficult things to go through. I’m not saying be joyful because you lost your job. I’m saying try to look for joy in little things. If you hear a baby giggle, or if your toddler just comes up to you and gives you a kiss. If your teenager opens up to you after being so distant. If you see a beautiful sunset or sunrise. If you see the snow on the trees. If your kid sings all the words to the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse song (yep, that’d be my kid). If someone gives you a call or a text and just lets you know they were thinking about you. There are so many little things we can find joy in. Try to find something to be thankful for every day.
No matter what you are struggling with, God loves you. He loves you more than you can fathom. No matter how depressed, anxious, or unlovable you feel, God loves you. Even if you don’t think you deserve, God loves you. He wants us to find reasons to choose joy. Try to find joy in the little things.
“We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you won’t become weary and give up. After all, you have not yet given your lives in your struggle against sin.” Hebrews 12:2-4 NLT