Blessed with the love of my life

So glad I am his wife

He’s so good at showing love to me

How did I get so lucky?

He’s a wonderful father to our son

He truly is the one

For whom I no longer have to wait

God has blessed me with my soulmate

Hopefully, I don’t embarrass Dan too much with this post, but I have been thinking lately about how thankful I am for him.  I’m so glad God has blessed me with him.  He’s a loving husband and a wonderful father.  We have learned so much about each other and ourselves in the last five and a half years of our marriage.  We have gone through so much together and that has helped us grow closer as a couple.

On our honeymoon, I had a very bad stomachache.  We eventually went to the emergency room and they realized I had an ovarian cyst; so that was an interesting honeymoon.  Hopefully the next time we go to Hawaii there won’t be any emergency room trips.  Then, in July of 2015 I had to have surgery to remove another ovarian cyst.  I was very anxious about it.  My doctor said there was a very small chance they would have to remove one of my ovaries.  Of course, because I have Anxiety, I was worried they might have to remove both of my ovaries.  Even though there was only a small chance of removing one of my ovaries, Anxiety is not rational.  My surgery went well and they didn’t have to remove either of my ovaries.

We started trying to getting pregnant after we’d been married for seven months.  I was sad every month when I found out I wasn’t pregnant.  I don’t know why, I guess I just assumed I’d be pregnant the first month which was silly.  I got pregnant with M.J. ten months after we started trying.  We were so excited!  Then I started having bad morning sickness.  That horrible morning sickness is one of the reasons I am so hesitant to have another child.  I don’t understand how moms take care of older children when they are throwing up at least once a day for twenty weeks.  So, yeah, the excitement of my pregnancy didn’t last that long.

 When we first had M.J., it was a very difficult time for our marriage.  We didn’t really fight that much before we had him.  After we had him, it seemed like we fought almost every day.  I hate fighting, I hate confrontation, and I hate conflict; so that time in our marriage was very difficult for me.  We have figured out how to parent together more effectively and we have gotten better at communication which has really helped with our marriage. We also know each other a lot better now which can make things easier.

Then, of course, there was November of 2019 when I finally told Dan I was suicidal.  He was an amazing, loving husband.  He drove me to the emergency room and didn’t treat me like I was crazy.  He took two weeks off of work so he could watch M.J. while I went to the Partial Hospitalization program.  I remember feeling so guilty he took time off work for me, but it’s just one more way he showed his love for me.  He is very loving and supporting and if he knows I’m feeling down, he will suggest things that he knows help me.  If I’m overwhelmed with M.J., he will say, “Why don’t you have some time to yourself?”  I’m so glad God has blessed us with each other.

“And the two are united into one.  Since they are no longer two but one, let no one split apart what God has joined together.”  Mark 10:8-9 NLT

Published by rachel.ermutlu@gmail.com

Christian. Wife. Mom. I just want to share my journey of motherhood and let struggling moms know they're not alone. I enjoy reading, playing board games, spending time with friends and family, and volunteering in the community.

Leave a comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Subscribe to my blogDon't miss any new posts!