I really like helping people in need. Mercy-showing is my main spiritual gift. One reason I really like the church we attend is because they are very big on helping the community. I believe God has called every one of us to help in some way. I will sometimes get sad that I’m not able to help everyone.
Dan is more of a realist than I am and he has to remind me that I am not the only servant God has called. I will ask, “But if I don’t do it, who’s going to?” Dan has to remind me that it is not possible to volunteer for every single volunteer opportunity there is. I know he knows I will go crazy if I forget to leave a little time for myself but I really do like helping people. Of course I don’t always feel capable.
I don’t always have the best self-esteem. Lately, I feel like God is calling our family to do something but I will think “I’m not capable of that.” I think God has purposely been putting things in front of me to show me I can’t do it alone but I can do it if I rely on Him. I have heard the song Confidence by Sanctus Real quite often lately and I feel that God is speaking to me through this song.
” I feel unqualified for what you’re calling me to but Lord with your strength I’ve got no excuse ’cause broken people are exactly who you use “
I have heard this song many times lately when I have been wondering “can I really do this?” “I am not capable.” “Maybe I’m hearing God wrong.”
It is also difficult because I often feel like I have to help everyone so I wonder if God really is calling us to do this. Although, it is something that has been on my heart since I was probably five years old. It was also something that Dan was not open to when we were first married but he told me recently he changed his mind. This makes me feel like it is something God is calling us to do but I’m thinking we might be crazy to even consider this. I guess God put the song Confidence in front of me because I often feel like I’m am very unqualified for this. The few people who we have told what we’re considering have been very encouraging and have told us if God wants it to happen it will happen. A friend even told me if it’s something God wants us to do we won’t feel qualified for it because we can’t do it without Him.
James 1:27 (NIV) “Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.”